Its deafening. The noise. As i stare at the blank screen i am assaulted, it screams insults at me. Things like “Your not good enough”, “you can’t do this”, “Your writing is an absolute joke”, “Don’t bother trying, your just going to make yourself look worse than you already look”. The insults keep coming, i …
Tag Archives: Depression
Shackled Hope
I swallow the small blue pill, innocently enough seeking relief from the screaming shadows. Yes, the medicine does provide me temporary relief from the darkness, but it also shackles me to it. Imagine that- I am shackled, in every way to this pill. This little pill i take 3 times a day. If i wake …
Soda, Crackers, & Coping Mechanisms
Like thunder roaring i awaken in in instant, dazed and on extremely high alert. My heart is beating out of my chest, I am sweating, My anxiety is so bad i start feeling like I’m physically caught in the endless loop i was in a few weeks ago when i had my episode. My stomach …
AM Keyboard Regurgitations
The lead pipe of reasoning swings up and smacks me across the head, sending me into spells of some pretty strong dizziness. I feel like a useless worm. hell, not even a worm, they serve a purpose. Trying to get this move done while battling my mental illness, a physical illness, and all the while …
Embers do more than Glow…
Like a wave crashing into a jetty and then being dispersed into smaller particles of water several emotions slam into me. And like the wave they hit so hard they are broken up into smaller fragments, some even carried away with the wind. Thats not usual, but a much appreciated respite. No matter what though, …
Family, Moving Forward, and the Circumference of Alanis Morissette’s Mouth
Dark, Foggy, and Hard to See What’s Next
Chain Brain
Rooted Chaos (Mental Illness in the brain)
Chimps, Potatoes, and Doctors with Bags
Have you ever had one of those days where as soon as you awaken and start doing your normal routine the urge to just go back to bed is so strong its as if the bed has some special power over you and is physically pulling you closer and closer to it? Actually i just …
Slippery Slope
Wilting a bit, yet absolutely Beautiful in it’s Uniqueness
Let it Flow
Writing is funny. The more i sit here and ponder what to write about the less i am able to think of. Its as if the creative process does not allow anything but spontaneity. Yesterday is a prime example of this. All day i thought about what to write about on my blog, all day …
Fit To Be Unfit 